I got a new computer

Surgery went fine

I'm alive

Surgery tomorrow

I'll see you all on the other side

Last night was really bad, but everything that went down is behind us now.

My friend and I reconciled today and everything is getting back to normal I hope.

I'll be taking the rest of this month off of social media and discord to take time for myself to be alone.

My surgery is also next thursday so that'll happen while i'm gone.

Thank you.

I will return when the time is right.

I wish I wasn't alive right now.

So many people would have such better lives if I hadn't forced myself into them.

Art is on hold indefinitely. Everything is on hold indefinitely. I'm just going to wallow in my own tears until they stop.

I hope I don't wake up tomorrow.

Thank you to everyone who "answered the call" from the other day. It definitely lifted my spirits a bit. It wasn't really necessary but I appreciate it regardless.

To be fair, my arts weren't doing all that great here so I wasn't really expecting anything. That journal post was more about Xwitter than NG. Don't get me started on Instagram and Threads, where i'm basically invisible.

Anyways, more arts to come. I'm in a big fighting game mood so maybe there will be some fighting pictures. We'll see.

Here is your reward:

The art from yesterday didnt do as well as i had hoped it would.

I was really proud of it and was excited to show it to everyone, but not a lot of people showed up to see it.

I feel very discouraged right now.

New FINISHED art tomorrow

Get hyped

Remember that surgery I was supposed to have today?

Well.........april fools.

Surgery was cancelled at the literal last possible second. Everything was ready to go. We were just waiting for a covid test to return with results.

The covid test came back. I tested negative for covid........but I tested positive for THE FLU.

I have the flu and didn't even know it. They were afraid to put me to sleep because I have the flu.

I understand where they're coming from...........but I am still beyond disappointed.

Tomorrow is the big day.

I'll see you all on the other side.